one day at a time....

un dave is at peace now. i just wish i was. im finding it hard to continue on my days-- when my days have been filled the past months taking care of him. i need to go back to work and do something constructive with my time besides feeling sorry for myself. i have a lot of projects that have been put on hold around the house the past months, so i could at least finish those. i want to get back into my scrapbooking now that davy has the room almost finished upstairs. i want to organize our garage and get the things back to their owners that have piled up in there. i want to paint the ugly green in the kitchen to something more cheerful. lots of things, just no energy. my back has been giving me issues again since i went for a massage last week. im not sure what happened there. i go back for another massage on friday afternoon. im hoping it will eventually help me to feel better. davy is having some leg issues right now, we leave for OKC tomorrow to hopefully get his new leg adjusted so that maybe, just maybe, the sores will go away this time. he might have to go ahead and apply for disability and work part time hours. he is struggling way to much it seems. he tries so hard. he wanted to go back to work asap after he lost his leg, but i think it has in the end caused him more damage. so we will take each thing one day at a time there-- it has gotten us through this far. i hope everyone is doing well. please keep us in your prayers. we have only reach the beginning of another long road. much love from the crockett's.

just an update

Life has been crazy right now. Uncle Dave past away on January 6th- i miss him so much. My days feel really empty right now. So I think I will go back to work soon to keep busy. We are having Un Dave's services this coming Monday. It will help us get to the next step and finalize this crazy situation we've been dealing with the past two weeks. The girls are getting so big so fast. I kept them home one day this week to have some girl time that I've been missing and I know they have as well. So we went and got our hair "did", rented a movie, and did a little shopping. They are so smart and talented- Davy and I have been blessed so well. I always imagined being a mother, but never could of imagined I could have to of the most beautiful girls in the world. (Im a proud Mom). Davy is doing really well handling the situation of Un Dave passing. He has really handled this a lot better than I thought considering what he went through when he lost his Mom. He makes me proud as well. We are hanging in here! Hope everyone is doing well! Blessings~

New Year, New Beginnings, and New at this Blogger

Well after much push from my beautiful Auntie Barbie, I have created a blogger! I love to blog and it's often a way for me to do my journaling for personal reasons or keep in touch with family and close friends! So Thank You Aunt Barbie! Where to start- New Years Eve was a bittersweet time for us. We have been taking care of Davy's Uncle Dave for a little over four months now. He has Hep C and has been in the end stages of the disease. (Just as Davy's Mom died of three years ago) I have been his full time caretaker and honestly, despite the tiring times, it's been a blessing for me in so many ways. On New Years Eve I brought him in to the hospital to get fluid removed off his stomach. We went ahead and went home to enjoy company that evening- at Uncle Daves request by Davy. The next morning Davy got up early and got to the hospital to find they had transferred him to ICU from his regular room and he was very out of it and sleeping deep. Before I could get up there the doctor called and said that Uncle Dave wasn't going to make it out of the hospital to come to live with us and that everything was starting to shut down on him. We made the decision yesterday to stop all medical care except for pain medications to keep him comfortable. So that is where we are at now. He is in a deep sleep and seems very peaceful. This process can take days- even weeks before they go ahead and pass. I know he lived a happy life and is ready to "go home". He will be pain free and whole once again. It is hard to let go of him for selfish reasons we all are guilty of when having to lose a loved one. Im fine one minute and the next minute the sorrow takes me over. Davy and I have been through a lot in our nine years together- and each time we come out stronger people than before. Uncle Dave will be missed and the memories he has given us will live on forever in our hearts. I am glad he made it to see 2009! Despite the pain we are feeling at the very beginning of this New Year, I plan on turning this around after it's all said and done. We will grieve and then we we heal. God has done very awesome things in our lives. He has blessed us with the most amazing family & friends. I could not ask for more. I have lots of goals this year and plan to see those take place one step at a time. I wish for everyone a very blessed 2009! I thought a picture of Uncle Dave, Kylee, and Kaity would be a good one to share!