my unconditional love for my dad, as he has given me.

I don't write much about my Dad, not sure why really, I should. He is a great Dad. Im not just writing because he brought it to my attention either, I have good reasons to write about him. My Dad has loved me unconditionally my entire life. He has never held anything over me, even when there have been times I know i've put him through hell. He loves my brothers and I so much, and it clearly shows in his loving support. He also gives his step-children the same unconditional love and support as he does his own blood. If you have ever been a step parent, then you know the patience it takes to do just that. If you have not, then you can only imagine. He has always been there for all six of us kids everytime we need a helping hand no matter what we might have said or done in the past. That alone, makes him the number one Dad in my eyes.

There have been times in my life where I have broken my Dad's heart. Times that I have let others control how I think and do, times I regret. Yet, he never stopped loving me. Never stopped being here for me when I have needed him the most. When Davy had his hunting accident my world was torn. I have never felt a heartbreak so bad. A pain so deep that it still sometimes bleeds like an open wound-- and who was the person that stood by my side with his loving support that I needed the most-- my Dad. I couldn't have Davy at the time and the next best thing to me was my Dad. He cried with me, prayed with me, held me at times-- I needed that so badly and I am forever thankful to him for that. He was there by our sides when we lost Davy's Mom, and again the night we lost Un Dave. He is a friend to my husband, and often a father figure to him as well.

We cannot forget what an awesome Papa he is. From the time the girls were little they have been wrapped around his finger. For someone who said he was to young to be a Grandpa, he sure does love those girls. They enjoy going places and doing things with their Papa & Grandma. It's rather fun raising kids with your parents. :)

We always joke around about who will take care of Dad when he gets to his older ages, he can rest assure that I will take care of him 110 percent. I will always give him the same love and support that he has given me when I have needed it the most.

I feel I got my personality from my dad. My good traits are that I am outgoing, funny, friendly, hard working, giving, sharing, & best of all I know how to love unconditionally because of him. We can't forget my "OCD" part either. Which can often be a good thing, not just a bad thing. ;)

Dad, I love you, always. I thank you for raising me to be the person I am today. I thank you for all you have given me. I thank you for always loving me unconditionally.
Robe-J

the feeling of being violated

I feel like something has been taken from me. We had been looking forward to our first trip of the year down to Roaring River for months. We brought the trailor home, got it ready, and left out last Thursday evening. I had a house sitter for the entire weekend, along with some a couple others checking on on things and taking care of our dogs. The house alarm had been tripped a couple of times throughout our trip so on Sunday when I spoke with my Mom I asked her to not set the alarm that we would be home later on and it wouldn't be any big deal. Afterall, we have had the alarm for four years now and nothing has ever happened to our home.

We left out later from Roaring River than planned. Which got us home later than planned. We pulled up in the driveway, the kids were asleep in the truck, and the first thing Davy did was go see his Duke at the side gate. Davy said he was acting weird, and I joked that he was mad Davy didn't take him with us. I told Davy I would unlock the door if he wanted to start getting the kids in the house. I walked up to the door, everything looking normal, other than I had asked for our front porch light to be left on, which it was off. I put the key in the door- which felt like it was already unlocked. I went to turn the deadbolt key and the door literally fell open. It was still attached to the hinges but it was tilted and made a crazy noise. I reached in and turned on the porch light and entry light and saw our framing of our door broken off and a huge mess in the floor. I saw wires from our house sticking out of the wall and it still didn't hit me until I saw the metal brackets laying in the floor. Our house had been broken into. I quietly turned around to Davy who was then standing behind me holding Kylee and whispered to him that our house had been broken into. We weren't sure if they were still in the house knowing our alarm was not set. He told me to get in the truch and lock it with the girls. He got his gun and went in. He brought Duke in with him because Duke is a good guard dog and can smell anything he doesn't know. Duke was still upset and the first thing he did was run to the middle of the living room and the front door. Then he started barking and getting upset so Davy had to let him outside where he puked. I was on the phone with 911 in the truck with the window cracked so I could hear if any shots were fired. Kylee was the only one awake at this point and very upset. It felt like I was in a nightmare and couldn't wake up. You hear of this kind of stuff happening but until it happens to you, you don't realize what it takes from your sense of security. Davy and the officers went through the house and from what we can see nothing is missing. We have a lot of stuff in our house that is of importance. Who knows if they got something small or not yet. They did take away my security in my own home. They think they may have heard the chime on the alarm and thought it was set when they busted open the door. Because the chime still works. They even bothered to shut the front door back when they left. The door being messed up at that time wouldn't shut unless someone tried hard to get it that way. I didn't sleep all night long that night fearing they would come back. I still feel as though they might try to come back.

It's one of the most horrible feelings I have ever felt in my life. Next to the hunting accident of course. They didn't have to take anything material or hurt my family for them to make me feel violated. They had the nerve to bust in my front door of my family's house. They felt brave enough in our "safe" neighborhood to do so. I know they will have to face the punishment later on down the road. I wish I could be there to see it.

We did have a good vacation. We got to spend a lot of time with some of our family, even take Flat Stanley with us (Kaity's class project), relax, fish, and enjoy our last bit of security for awhile. I have lots of pictures and would like to share a few with you all on here. I will post more later on my FB.

I hope everyone is doing well. Remember to keep your house locked up and if you have alarms, use them even if you are leaving for a minute. These times are rough right now and people are doing whatever it takes to get food and money. Be alert around your house and your neighbors homes. You never know if someone is watching for you to leave.

Much Love- Robyn

Cinderella at the Ballet & a bond between sisters

Tonight my mom is taking the girls to see Cinderella at the ballet. They have been looking forward to this event for a few weeks now. They enjoy stuff like that so much. I am very happy that my Mom is such a good Grammy to the girls. She and I might not always see eye to eye on things, but one thing is true, she is the most active Grammy and lives to see the girls have a good time doing fun stuff. I got the girls hair fixed and their beautiful dresses on that they picked out to wear. I thought I would share some pictures with everyone.

I remember six years ago when I was pregnant with Kaity (fixing to have her to be exact), feeling on top of the world that I was going to have two girls. I remember when we found out we were having another girl I cried so hard during the ultrasound. Because deep down I wanted for Kylee to have a sister. A best friend that I never got to have growing up. Someone to always lean on when the rest of the world walked out. My daughters are just as close to each other as I ever dreamed of. I only hope they continue that bound forever and always that Davy and I strongly encourage between them. I am sure they will. One of the best things in this world is hearing them say "I love you" to each other and truly, deeply meaning every single word of it. Even though I never got that bound with a "sister", I can see that it is a special bond to have and I am lucky to get to watch it day by day between my daughters. Bless them and their relationship, always. It's amazing watching them have a sister "cat" fight one minute, but yet sticking up for each other the next. I was supposed to have my Kylee & Kaity, no doubt!

my girls & scrapbooking

Things are going so well for us Crockett's! We are so blessed. Davy and I thank the Lord each day for giving us Kylee and Kaity. They make our days brighter and always bring a smile to our faces. Kylee is 8 going on 13. She has always been in a hurry to grow up! But they will both always be little girls to me. ;) Kaity is going to be turning 6 on Valentines Day! It's seems so shocking to me it has been six years since I gave birth to my youngest. She is started to pronounce her "r's" normal instead of her own style. For instance, I miss when someone asked her what her Mama's name was and she would always say "wobyn". LOL. I love my angels. They may be Daddy's girls, but they will always be Mama's best of friends!

I'm hoping to start scrapbooking full time again soon. Our scrapbook room is almost completely done! I went today and spent way to much money (sorry honey) on special wooden scrapbooking shelves/organizers. But it's what I have been wanting for a long time now! Im finally going to have a "girls" room I can call my own to escape to with just "us girls". Im really excited to have the project finished, and of course will post pictures when it's done. We've put a lot of work into it for sure. Well life is great on our end, and I hope the same on yours! xxoo

one day at a time....

un dave is at peace now. i just wish i was. im finding it hard to continue on my days-- when my days have been filled the past months taking care of him. i need to go back to work and do something constructive with my time besides feeling sorry for myself. i have a lot of projects that have been put on hold around the house the past months, so i could at least finish those. i want to get back into my scrapbooking now that davy has the room almost finished upstairs. i want to organize our garage and get the things back to their owners that have piled up in there. i want to paint the ugly green in the kitchen to something more cheerful. lots of things, just no energy. my back has been giving me issues again since i went for a massage last week. im not sure what happened there. i go back for another massage on friday afternoon. im hoping it will eventually help me to feel better. davy is having some leg issues right now, we leave for OKC tomorrow to hopefully get his new leg adjusted so that maybe, just maybe, the sores will go away this time. he might have to go ahead and apply for disability and work part time hours. he is struggling way to much it seems. he tries so hard. he wanted to go back to work asap after he lost his leg, but i think it has in the end caused him more damage. so we will take each thing one day at a time there-- it has gotten us through this far. i hope everyone is doing well. please keep us in your prayers. we have only reach the beginning of another long road. much love from the crockett's.

just an update

Life has been crazy right now. Uncle Dave past away on January 6th- i miss him so much. My days feel really empty right now. So I think I will go back to work soon to keep busy. We are having Un Dave's services this coming Monday. It will help us get to the next step and finalize this crazy situation we've been dealing with the past two weeks. The girls are getting so big so fast. I kept them home one day this week to have some girl time that I've been missing and I know they have as well. So we went and got our hair "did", rented a movie, and did a little shopping. They are so smart and talented- Davy and I have been blessed so well. I always imagined being a mother, but never could of imagined I could have to of the most beautiful girls in the world. (Im a proud Mom). Davy is doing really well handling the situation of Un Dave passing. He has really handled this a lot better than I thought considering what he went through when he lost his Mom. He makes me proud as well. We are hanging in here! Hope everyone is doing well! Blessings~

New Year, New Beginnings, and New at this Blogger

Well after much push from my beautiful Auntie Barbie, I have created a blogger! I love to blog and it's often a way for me to do my journaling for personal reasons or keep in touch with family and close friends! So Thank You Aunt Barbie! Where to start- New Years Eve was a bittersweet time for us. We have been taking care of Davy's Uncle Dave for a little over four months now. He has Hep C and has been in the end stages of the disease. (Just as Davy's Mom died of three years ago) I have been his full time caretaker and honestly, despite the tiring times, it's been a blessing for me in so many ways. On New Years Eve I brought him in to the hospital to get fluid removed off his stomach. We went ahead and went home to enjoy company that evening- at Uncle Daves request by Davy. The next morning Davy got up early and got to the hospital to find they had transferred him to ICU from his regular room and he was very out of it and sleeping deep. Before I could get up there the doctor called and said that Uncle Dave wasn't going to make it out of the hospital to come to live with us and that everything was starting to shut down on him. We made the decision yesterday to stop all medical care except for pain medications to keep him comfortable. So that is where we are at now. He is in a deep sleep and seems very peaceful. This process can take days- even weeks before they go ahead and pass. I know he lived a happy life and is ready to "go home". He will be pain free and whole once again. It is hard to let go of him for selfish reasons we all are guilty of when having to lose a loved one. Im fine one minute and the next minute the sorrow takes me over. Davy and I have been through a lot in our nine years together- and each time we come out stronger people than before. Uncle Dave will be missed and the memories he has given us will live on forever in our hearts. I am glad he made it to see 2009! Despite the pain we are feeling at the very beginning of this New Year, I plan on turning this around after it's all said and done. We will grieve and then we we heal. God has done very awesome things in our lives. He has blessed us with the most amazing family & friends. I could not ask for more. I have lots of goals this year and plan to see those take place one step at a time. I wish for everyone a very blessed 2009! I thought a picture of Uncle Dave, Kylee, and Kaity would be a good one to share!